I wonder

Since all this began, almost 3 months ago, I've jumped in and out of myself looking for answers.  I've been outside myself looking in and been inside myself looking out, and I've come to a lot of conclusions that I won't go into now, as not to bore and bother those of you who choose to take a look at this little thing called a blog.
But, I have to ask myself some questions, one being...if you've put things aside and behind you, and have possibly convinced yourself it's ok to let down your guard again, but choose not to see that what you almost tossed out, you really need more than anything?
What would happen if, these things that you felt as though you didn't need were thrown away, so to speak, became so important to you later? What if you didn't understand how much you needed these things, and then...they weren't there? And you weren't able to get them back?
It all comes back to,"you don't know what you've lost until it's gone..."
What if it's too late to get them back?
What then?
And what would happen, if say, you find them and want them back...but those things don't want you?
What then?