What if...
I can't help to wonder sometimes what my life would be like if the separation would have happened. I have dreams of waking up in the little house up the canyon...snow outside, coffee in hand, missing the sound of the kids as they run through the house early on a Saturday morning.
I can't help but wonder what I'd be doing throughout the week to keep my mind from driving me insane.
I do miss my friends, but I think it's best to spend my time with my family. To focus on what's important. We're about to go back into production with Proper, and I think there will be times when I won't be able to spend as much time with them as I'd like.
The song,"Last but not least" by Zac Brown Band comes to mind. A sentence in the song that says,"sometimes things that just don't matter, jump in front of things that do".
I told myself last year that everything I was doing was for the greater good. The meetings. All the god damned meetings that now seem pointless. I know that sometimes they are needed. We've mentioned the option of teleconference for some of these meetings this time around. We've met a bit of resistance at first, but, the option has not been offered to the whole team.
We've got to continue to be streamlined, sleek like a racing boat, that cuts through the difficult times that we face ahead. The new team is assembled. The new plan is in the works. Why not keep it that way? Keep it simple. Don't clog the wheels with fucking meetings that require people to travel. Waste gas...take time away from their families, from their lives? We've got to realize that not everyone has the same goals. We've got to realize that not everyone has the same passion for this project as we do. They have lives. They have jobs. Now, if we were working with $1M an episode, then yes...god damn it....you will live, eat , breathe and sleep Proper Manors. But until then, keep it simple. Make use of technology that makes our lives easier.
Ok, Ok...enough of the bitching...
This started out as a what if...
So I guess...what if Proper becomes the hit that we think it will...
What kind of commitment and sacrifices will I have to make? Will my family see once again that I'm working from my heart to achieve the freedoms that we've worked so hard for for so long? Will they understand? Or will it come down to what's been happening for a long time...that I've put everything else first?
These are the choices that I have to make. However, I feel as though, I can do both and still make these things in my life work, without sacrificing too much, or making my family feel as though they are living without me.
Tristan will be working in the show, and from what it appears from our meeting last weekend in Park City, that Tammy might be involved as well. Her and Peter talked and hugged...I've not and will not ask what was said. I'll wait until that bridge is crossed and I'm on the same path with them walking across it.
Again, it all comes back to what if...
I can't help but wonder what I'd be doing throughout the week to keep my mind from driving me insane.
I do miss my friends, but I think it's best to spend my time with my family. To focus on what's important. We're about to go back into production with Proper, and I think there will be times when I won't be able to spend as much time with them as I'd like.
The song,"Last but not least" by Zac Brown Band comes to mind. A sentence in the song that says,"sometimes things that just don't matter, jump in front of things that do".
I told myself last year that everything I was doing was for the greater good. The meetings. All the god damned meetings that now seem pointless. I know that sometimes they are needed. We've mentioned the option of teleconference for some of these meetings this time around. We've met a bit of resistance at first, but, the option has not been offered to the whole team.
We've got to continue to be streamlined, sleek like a racing boat, that cuts through the difficult times that we face ahead. The new team is assembled. The new plan is in the works. Why not keep it that way? Keep it simple. Don't clog the wheels with fucking meetings that require people to travel. Waste gas...take time away from their families, from their lives? We've got to realize that not everyone has the same goals. We've got to realize that not everyone has the same passion for this project as we do. They have lives. They have jobs. Now, if we were working with $1M an episode, then yes...god damn it....you will live, eat , breathe and sleep Proper Manors. But until then, keep it simple. Make use of technology that makes our lives easier.
Ok, Ok...enough of the bitching...
This started out as a what if...
So I guess...what if Proper becomes the hit that we think it will...
What kind of commitment and sacrifices will I have to make? Will my family see once again that I'm working from my heart to achieve the freedoms that we've worked so hard for for so long? Will they understand? Or will it come down to what's been happening for a long time...that I've put everything else first?
These are the choices that I have to make. However, I feel as though, I can do both and still make these things in my life work, without sacrificing too much, or making my family feel as though they are living without me.
Tristan will be working in the show, and from what it appears from our meeting last weekend in Park City, that Tammy might be involved as well. Her and Peter talked and hugged...I've not and will not ask what was said. I'll wait until that bridge is crossed and I'm on the same path with them walking across it.
Again, it all comes back to what if...
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